It feels I am on repeat. Work, sleep, eat, doctor’s appointments, and repeat. I am having a difficult time getting up for work. I get up around 5:30 depending on the day. My cat wakes me just about 5:15 am. wanting treats. She is a great alarm clock because she is pretty consistent. She will give up after a bit if I don’t get get up though so the snooze button on her isn’t calibrated right.

I have been going to a lot of doctor appointments. Started with getting a mammogram, and then I had an ultrasound to check k my bladder, which led to me finding out some things. I have had another ultrasound to confirm the results and had a pap smear. The pap smear came back abnormal, so I have another appointment to remedy that scheduled next week. Then, another with my urogynecology doctor for the results of the bladder tests I did to see what we will do about that. It has been a lot. I am using my health savings, which I thankfully have because my insurance deductible is high. I am grateful for that amount of savings, but it is running low now. I won’t meet my deductible of $7,500 because I can’t afford to, but I hope to have some answers.

Between that and working, all I do is sleep. I have very low energy. I keep thinking if I worked out, maybe I would have some energy, but I can’t seem to do it yet. I want to get back to feeling more nyself and not carry all this extra weight around. It is a vicious circle of events just now. I will get through it, but it has been difficult to stay motivated.

Work has been good. A co-worker was out a few days, and it was super busy. I worked a lot of overtime in the same week. This week is back to being calm. Learning how to bill a special way for big projects has been interesting. I managed to do two by myself this week. I am very proud of myself. I’m still nervous they will be rejected, but I did them. They are big important ones too. We have several big projects coming up, so it is important to get them right.

Monday will be the first memorial day I have celebrated back in the States in a few years. I am glad to have an extra day off on the horizon. Maybe I can find something fun to do. Taking a break from dating. It has been too much effort. Haven’t been finding anyone worth dating lately anyway. Here is to finish the week strong and enjoying the weekend. Have a good weekend everyone.