It has been a challenging week. Thankfully my daughter Rebecca and my granddaughter Shelby are here visiting. I have been incapable of doing a lot as the depression has hit hard but each day gets better.
The long conversations with Rebecca have been therapeutic. We have been enjoying time in the pool, and meal times together. It has been a nice distraction. It has been really warm but sounds like other places are as well. There are storms on the way so then we will do some inside activities later this week.
Every day that passes will be easier and hoping to make new friends. I put it in a group chat with a 50 plus group where there quite a few people from here. We shall see what happens.
I joined the local gym and have made myself go a few times during the week. I have been doing seminars and agreed to be a co-leader in the in the small group to keep me accountable. I also signed up for a 7 month leadership course to help me gain confidence in myself.
One of our assignments is to share. I would like to share the journey. Being vulnerable takes something and I always want to be full of integrity in my life, which looks like being open, and honest about what is happening.
I want to do the hard things because the good things take work. The struggles are still there but working to change my perspective. I don’t want to keep dragging my past into the future. I want my breakdowns to lead to breakthroughs and only sharing makes it happen. Bear with me as I need all the love and support I can get.
In discovering these things I realize I have always been worthy and deserving of love and friendship, but I have not always made my mental health a top priority. I intend to do so now. I don’t believe life is meant to be easy but I have always been worth it. I just forget sometimes.
Take 2 of Life 
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