Hi everyone. It has been hot, and today, it feels humid here in Arizona. The heat has been unrelenting, but that is ok. More to come. There have been some evening thunderstorms and today we had a little rain. I love the sunshine, but with it comes heat. The mornings have been in the high 80s to mid-90s. Despite that temperature (37 to 40 celcius), I have been enjoying the mornings as the sun is coming out. The cooler than 110 to 117 feels great, but it doesn’t last too long. The rest of the day is spent inside in the comfort of air conditioning.

What I have been doing is unpacking boxes and attending a follow-up seminar from London with Monday evenings. I have learned so very much about myself and why I do the things I do. When it is taken down to the core of what happened and what is, it is freeing. I am learning to understand how I am in my life.

I have realized some patterns I have had that have made my life what it is up to now. So powerful to be more aware of them so I can change how and what I do to create the life I do want. I am sure I won’t be perfect at this every day. I have had years of practice doing it the old familiar way. Undoing all those easy roll backs will take time, but I can imagine how amazing my life can be. I can begin to see how I have been standing in my own way.

I have had breakdowns and breakthroughs. Realizing both are helpful to me. One is awareness, and the other is full of possibilities. I have had deep conversations with my daughters and my ex-husband, which I never could have had. I have uncovered things which I can now let go of. I am living in the possibility I will have wonderful relationships. I am living in the possibility of a bright and amazing life. I have gained so much confidence in myself.

It will be a practice to keep myself here every single day. I am sure I will have breakdowns, and I look forward to discovering them. Today, I am going to be meeting my ex-husband’s new girlfriend. I am not even nervous. I am excited. Who would think I would say that? No one, up to now. Rebecca and Shelby are coming to visit for 10 days next week, and I am looking forward to it wholeheartedly. Will we have some breakdowns? Maybe. Will I look forward to exploring those, absolutely.

You may be thinking, who is this person? I hope so anyway. Can this last? I hope so! As long as I continue to be aware and observe and explore for myself what I need to do to stand in a place of being who I want to be. A caring, powerful creator of my life. That looks like wonderful relationships and a life I bring to pass. No limitations! No hiding! A life full of kept promises to myself and others. A life of joy. Will I hit bumps in the road? Most assuredly. Will I do everything right all the time? Doubtful. But I feel freer than I have felt in a very long time.