I have been in London on a wild ride. I went to a seminar called Landmark Forum. It was amazing!! Full of love. We spent three intensive days of learning how what I think and do affects everything I do. The stories and meanings I make up in my mind are what I then choose to believe, and this colors everything I do.
It was transforming, and I was witness to many more transformations with other participants as well. I realized how I have been being and living my life is not helping me but hindering me. I have been stopped by fear and anxiety solely based on what I am believing is the truth when the reality is, it is a story I tell myself to justify my position, wants, and desires. I have let fear stop me so many times from doing what I really want. I have told myself I really did not want it anyway, just give it up, you will do the things you really want, so you must not want it enough.
On occasion, I have been brave. I have done things courageously, but there are plenty of things where I have not been this way. This is a journey and will continue to be as I build a life filled with confidence and love for myself but also others. I am choosing to accept I am divorced and he is happy. I am choosing to stay in the lives with my stepchildren and grandchildren because I love them. I am choosing to go back to the States and have a go at life there. I am choosing to be happy and joyful above all.
This means I may have to leave some things behind. Things that are not working. The things that don’t resonate with me any longer. With fear gone, I expect some amazing things to be coming soon. I choose to create a life of joy, peace, and love. I feel like a young, happy girl again who wants to play. I feel as if the burdens I have been carrying have gone away. It is freeing.
After 3 days of intense learning, I did have a chance to go explore London with some friends. We had a fun afternoon together. The next day, I just stayed in my rented flat and relaxed. We had a busy evening to go. On my last evening, I met up with my health coach Laura, and we caught up. I love her so much.
Gurjit, who is my relationship coach, invited me to do the event. She came on Sunday evening. It was so nice to see her again, in person after a year. I am so grateful and feel so much love for her and for all the people I have encountered because of her. I am so thankful for my journey and the friends I have made. What a joy and blessing in my life. I have learned a lot. Ups and downs, good and bad. All have been worth it. Thank you for being on this journey with me.
What a great way to start my life going forward. Who knows if I will ever live here again but for now a new chapter is beginning. I am excited and that brings some nervousness. The unknown is just that, unknown. I am the author of my story. Anything can happen. The possibilties are there for something amazing to happen.
Take 2 of Life 
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