What a gorgeous few days, and it will continue until Monday, according to the forecast. It has been 19 degrees warm, which is the high 60s. Rain is coming as I get ready to travel to the USA on Tuesday morning. I am anxious about all the things I need to do and the relative short time to do it. It will also be the first time I will see Dan and the kids and grandkids for 1 1/2 years.

How will it feel to be home is something I wonder about. I imagine there will be tears and big feelings. I will have to manage those feelings. I will get to see friends and eat in my favorite restaurants. I can’t wait to see Chambers Bay and the beauty of Washington again. It will be emotional and short as I am only there for shy of 2 weeks before moving on to Idaho.

To see my parents and siblings will also be amazing. Two brothers and a sister, along with their families. My niece Brianna will be graduating from college, and I am so proud of her hard work. I will again only stay a short time, just Iverson a week before moving on to my home in Arizona.

Nala got her passport but won’t be traveling with me at this time. She got spayed and had her rabies. She has done very well, but she can’t travel until 21 days after the rabies shot. Also, she really needed to be spayed so she could settle in, and she has done very well, but today, she was in a little bit of pain. She got her pain meds and felt immediately better and playful. Today, she laid her head on me and slept for the first time. She doesn’t often sit close.

I have been experiencing anxious feelings about coming home. The decision to come back to Sweden has not been easy. I have such mixed feelings and want to be able to land somewhere and feel at home, but as yet, I am not sure where that is. I wanted to come home to meet friends and family and see how it feels.

I have been trying to change my mindset by working with Gurjit, my relationship coach. I have learned so much from her, and she is always there to support me. My amazing friends, I feel your love, and I look forward to seeing as many of you as I possibly can. Nala will stay behind with Sorin, and how that relationship will be in the future remains to be seen. I have had many difficult emotions I have not fully been able to work through. Staying or splitting is still something that will be decided with time. My relationship with myself is the one I need to work on most.