The past days have been quite frankly some dark days. I have been depressed and uncertain about where I should be. Living in the moment is not something I do well apparently.  I have been thinking about where I want to live. I have been considering  the benefits of Sweden vs. The states and there are plenty of things about both to consider.

It has taken a while to get myself together here so it started me thinking about living in both places. Sweden in the summer when Arizona is too warm for me and Arizona when it is cold in Sweden. Downside to that is Dan is thinking exactly the same thing, except the Sweden part. He is already buying a second home in Arizona before we are even fully divorced. Also I can not take my cat back and forth easily if I am in Sweden.

This week I did pick up my new Swedish passport and ID card. The photo is so awful because it rained all day the day I went in for photos. I am so glad I booked when I did as now there are no time slots until later this year to get in.

After I picked up my passport I walked around the area and I noticed an interesting church nearby. It had a lot of interesting figurines made of clay inside. I captured a couple of them.  It was a very nice church. They have concerts there. I will have to see about attending one if I can.

Thusday I got news the landlord wants to sell the apartment I am renting and now I am forced to figure out what to do. I think I would want an extra bedroom if I buy, and still not ready to commit to furnishing a place. Buying this place would be easy if I could buy furniture and all included. No moving just sign some papers. This place is nice, light and so convenient at times but I do miss being in town.

At the same time I am looking for a job and starting my new workout job near where I live. I know it takes time to work things out and maybe I need to see how things fall into place or don’t. I also realize I have acquired too much stuff already. I planned to be here in this apartment until I decided what to do but that is not always how it works. My year is not up until November.

Where I live is an up and coming neighborhood with lots of building going on but that can also mean a flood of new places on the market soon, which could lower prices later. I could look at it as an investment and earn something from it but so far my investments here have not paid off well. I don’t know if I know enough.  I do know throwing money away on rent doesn’t make sense either. For a year maybe, but not forever.

Too many decisions and ideas running through my head at once. I am going to start looking for another apartment, checking in with the bank here in Sweden and US and get options.  I have to make 6 to 20 inquiries on jobs by the 14th and I finally get to start my job on Tuesday teaching Body Pump.  It got put off a week because of technical issues. So many things all at once but isn’t that just how it goes? Everything will be sorted out one day at a time.