Today is December 1st. It is lightly snowing here in Limhamn and very cold but beautiful. It probably won’t stay if it is anything like home. It does remind me that Christmas is on the way.
This past week has been tough. I have had a migraine off and on and with that my mental health has been affected. I felt less positive about the future and that my move was a good idea. I wanted to go home.
The realization I came to is I have no home to go back to. I can not go back to my old life, my last home, my husband, etc. I have nowhere to look except the future. Things will never be as it once was. I realized this yesterday after I got a chiropractic adjustment and my head is back on straight. I felt hopeful and more positive. I also saw my cousin’s son Jonas again and he is so great to spend time with. He gave me a very therapeutic massage of which my tissue and muscles are sore but grateful.
Today I am 99% packed again and ready to move to my new apartment in the center of the city called Malmö. I always find myself very happy when I have been there so I am hopeful this will continue. I have called for a taxi and will get my things downstairs within the hour. This is the place I originally had booked which is 31 square meters about 333 square feet. A bit bigger, a double bed, larger kitchen but smaller bathroom and no washer or dryer in the unit. Still, I look forward to being there.
My plans for today are to move in, unpack and nest, shop for some groceries, and start looking for some things for Christmas. There is a second-hand store on the next street over and I would be very happy to find a few things I could use over the Christmas season to feel the spirit. It will be a tough one I am sure. A season of sorrow, grieving for my family and my cat.
Yesterday I saw an ad for homeless cats and I thought that is something I could do. Something I would absolutely love, so I found a website and put in a request to volunteer. The love of animals is something that would bring me happiness. I may also volunteer for those in need but do not feel as drawn to that as I do with animals. I do prefer cats but dogs or birds are also very fun. I need someone who loves me back right now.
I also have some papers to print out and sign so I can rent my permanent apartment starting in January. This will be a huge weight off my shoulders but I also am having some anxiety about how I am going to pay the rent with my funds being overseas and the cost and trouble of wiring it. I originally planned with AirBNB I could just put it on my card, and pay online but this apartment is less money and a private person so it may not work the same. All these things will get figured out.
I have not heard from back the bank yet, which has been a week now since I was there. This makes me insecure when I go shopping. I never know if the card I have will work or not. The grocery stores so far at least still accept cash. I also have on my schedule this week to get packages ready and shipped for my grandchildren. The beautiful thing a MailBoxes, etc store is just downstairs from my new apartment. There will be lots of wonderful things about this move and I hope to bring you along as I navigate learning more new things.
Time has usually gone very quickly the past 10 years but the past 2 1/2 weeks have stretched out the time, not always in a good way. Every day there are new things to learn. Some I don’t mind learning, others I would rather not but alas it is all experience. May your week be blessed and may you and I be grateful for the things we are learning and experiencing. May we slow down and enjoy the moments. Let us not take for granted what we have because it can be gone as suddenly as it came. Love and respect yourself and others and trust in God for he will be there to help when you ask.
Take 2 of Life 
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