I have debated how much to share, but maybe someone can learn from my mistakes, so here goes. I want to fall in love with someone, so I am deciding it is time to fall in love with myself. Dating has not gone well. The one man I wrote about, the one I thought was maybe the one, has again disappeared. I have learned some valuable lessons from him and others. He disappeared after a request he made for me to take money into my account and send it somewhere else. I declined, and boom, he was gone. He didn’t pressure me, just stopped all contact, which broke my heart but shouldn’t have. I should consider myself lucky, despite the broken heart.

What I discovered is there are scams out there for money laundering. They ask you to take money into your account and then send it someplace else to launder the money, according to the FBI website I read. Lucky break for me as those crimes are prosecutable to me. I am glad for my instinct. I helped him with a purchase, which seemed rather odd, so what that was really for, I will never know.

There are other types of scammers, too. The kind who want to “teach” me to invest in something, and when I say no, they also disappear. There are those who just talk a little, and it never goes anywhere, and frankly, I am frustrated.  Frustrated by the humans I am attracting at the moment. So, after lots of chats and a few meet-ups, I am taking a break from rejection. I have made one good friend and met a couple of others who aren’t giving up yet, despite my lack of interest.

This past week, I did go with my friend Bruce to an ABBA tribute band concert, which was quite fun. The musicians were great, and the theater in downtown Mesa was very nice. I danced a little and had a good dinner nearby. It is good to have a few friends to go play with when I need that.

Other than that, life has been a bit boring. I have been working on learning Quickbooks online, looking for a job, and doing the bookkeeping for myself and Dan. I haven’t had much of a desire to do much of anything, including things that used to be fun. My attention span is short for everything. It will get better, but for now, life is hard. Nala, the cat, is doing good, although she is also bored with me.

I was able to watch Sweden’s Melodifestival final, which is a popular music concert competing to be able to go to Eurovision and compete with other countries.  The winner were twins from Norway, Marcus and Martinus.  They were good and had competed many times before. All or most are known artists. ABBA won this contest in the 70s and went on to win Eurovision. This is about all I could manage these days. Things will get better as I appreciate the good things I have going for me…I am very lucky indeed.