This has been a busy week. Rebecca and Shelby and I swam in the pool, went to the aquarium and Legoland, and played card games like Go Fish and our favorite Loonacy. This is a game of matching and speed. I first played this with two of my sisters, and we laughed so much. We played for hours, and Shelby loved it and asked to play again and again, even Rebecca liked it. We had a great time together and had some nice long talks.

They left on Monday morning. It feels very empty without them, and Nala misses Shelby playing with her. It is also nice to have some quiet time. It is getting a little easier, some evenings.

I bought myself an electric piano so I can entertain myself and do something I enjoyed when I was younger. It is nothing fancy but will be good for me.

I have been attending meetings which helps me remember what I am trying to create in my life. I want to create a life of purpose and meaning. One where I can appreciate where I have been and enjoy the time I have left in my life. Family is important. Nourishing those relationships with my kids and grandchildren and also my parents and siblings. I have been richly blessed and I want to appreciate it as much as I can.

I got the final window and slider door installed today. It is so quiet in here now. They add value to my home but also comfort. They are better insulated and keeps the air conditioners working a bit less. The solar panels should help the energy bill as well. It was a nice surprise it all worked out for today.

I also got my Arizona license and plates for my car today, so I am officially a resident now. It wasn’t as difficult as I expected. I also got the tires checked as a sensor had come on for low tire pressure. All was well.

Today, I did some bookkeeping and had a meeting with my financial planner to give her an update on how things were going. I am so very lucky to have her on my side. I have some things to do. I have a budget to establish and set a goal to start saving more. I still don’t have medical insurance, so that is another thing to take care of, along with a cell phone plan. All these expenses I did not have while in Sweden. It will be important to love within my, which means it is time to start looking for a job as well.

All these things are helping me create the life I want. I even got asked out on a date. We planned for today but it didn’t come to pass so we will see if it happens. Still, it felt nice to be askes. Evenings are still lonely, but I have some homework for my seminars, which includes watching the original 1984 Karate Kid movie. Takes me back.

I have been going to the gym a few times a week to walk on the treadmill and training at home 2 to 3 days a week with Bodypump on demand. That has been fun, but it’s hard to get back to the weight I was using. It will come. Slowly, I am introducing new things to help me get rid of some of the bad habits I have picked up. I am sedantary far too much. I crave a routine of some sort, so I’m working on it and practicing keeping my agreements to myself. This is part of my journey. It is getting easier to go to bed alone and wake up alone, but it won’t be forever, just right now. I am ok with that.