This week has been filled with ups and down. I have been glad Sorin is back but unsure and waiting for the next time things go south. It has been a good few days where we have been able to talk, and be together. In a way I feel I am waiting for the other shoe to drop, I am thinking it is a bit like PTSD where you get triggered by certain things. I had a meltdown after a small thing happened which was a misunderstanding.

I have been realizing some of my own issues which need to be worked on. One thing is being more positive. I have a tendency to focus on the negative side of things. I could do better at also praising the good things about everyone but especially my partner. I have been aware but it is continual work for me. I forget people close to me need to be praised because I don’t necessarily. I do however tend to point out the negative rather easily. First becoming aware so I can do something different.

While he was gone a booked a flight to Italy to help cheer myself up. It is a bit challenging going without any credit cards but I do have my debit cards. Just have to keep an eye on ny expenses. I will be visiting a dear friend in Rome and next week my brother. Always exciting to go see a new place.

As I was leaving the snow was falling again. It was beautiful. It may snow for several days while the weather in Rome is rain it is supposed to be warmer. I am at the airport waiting to board my 2 hr 30 min flight as I write.

I did go to a meeting with my new colleagues to get to meet them, see the kitchen location and I will be working between Christmas and New years. After this one shop may be staying open later so I may go there or help out in other locations. I hope to be able to do something more regular but I am also ok with now and then.

Look for more adventures coming soon. I am ready to board. Had sushi for dinner. You choose from the containers going by. Very good.