Sometimes, we have too many choices which for me, makes decision making difficult. When possibilities abound we can be paralyzed with indecision.

What color do we want to paint the living room, for example. There are hundreds of shades of just the color red. All shades from light to dark. Even white has different hues. Which one will look the best, reflect the light, go with the pillows, etc. Can we go wrong? Maybe not with white but the wrong shade of red can mean other things don’t work like the rug, pillows, sofa, etc. It is complicated or do we make it more than it needs to be?

How do you make decisions? Do you get stuck making the perfect decision? What happens when it is something which could impact your life? I have been making decisions but sometimes it takes a while. One builds on another as I gather information. Hoping I make the best decision to move forward. I decided not to take the apartment I loved near my friend and closer in town. I spoke to my landlord and got more information on the time-frame he has in mind. Then a mortgage banker and soon my financial planner, along with bouncing ideas off friends.

Each question, exploration, and discussion helps me make another decision. Sometimes I have to rest for a bit in-between. The decision making fatigue can take over. The overwhelm can turn into fight or flight and irratic decisions. It takes time. Sometimes it is slow but one little step forward propels me to the next.

At the moment I have decided not to buy the apartment I live in, nor any other property in Sweden. I have decided I want to go home in the fall. I have decided I can change my mind about being here. I discovered I came here from a little girl’s dream of being with her father. He isn’t here anymore. Also the dream and reality are quite different.

I have more decisions to make. All can not be made at once. Some decisions can be made quickly, some slowly. All will come, one way or another. I am a smart woman but sometimes I make mistakes. I can get off track or go down a completely wrong road. I know it happens to everyone. Hopefully, I learn along the way but at times I have to repeat the lesson over and over and over again. Life is about the journey not the destination. Taking it slow until I have to speed it up.

Dan and I have agreed on the final things to finish our divorce. It has not been easy. We have had many difficult conversations. We have both learned some things, me especially. We hope we can continue to work together despite not being able to be together. Our family depends on it. We love them more than the situation. For them, we will continue to work on being reasonable with one another.

I had my second Les Mills BodyPump class yesterday. 9 people! 2 came back from last week. I will be declining the September class but can pick up extras when available, which there seem to be many. I can stop job hunting and enjoy the remaining time to the fullest. I Rode my bicycle to the gym and back. It was lightly raining when I left but that was ok. It felt great. Feels amazing to have a class again. I enjoy being back and feel so much stronger already. This time, I am letting go of expectations more and having fun. Something I wanted to do but couldn’t before. Maybe you can teach an old dog some new tricks!

I have done some data entry today for the rental properties. I got behind a bit. I have been feeling depressed or anxious depending on the day. I believe all the uncertainty of what I should be doing caught up with me. I still have questions and decisions to make. But there are a few less at the moment. A little lighter feeling. Living in the present is not something I do well. I live in the past or future a fair amount. I saw a sign the other day about each day being a gift which is why it is called a present. I need to do more of that. I will always be a planner but a bit more spontaneous I hope! Have a wonderful day and would love to hear how you make your decisions.