Today my timing has been good. Made the trains and the busses precisely in time. Got to my massage with my cousin Jonas a few minutes earlier when I expected to be late. Now I feel fantastic! It is another beautiful sunny day, although foggy in the morning. After the massage I took the bus to Ön (the island) which is in Limhamn and was not disappointed. Jonas told me it was a good place to check out. There is a nice path all the way around and gorgeous views of the water.

It has been an emotional few days but I have come to a few realizations. One is I have some issues to work on. One being triggers of abandonment. People are going to go to work, go places without me and I am ok with that for the most part but when I have someone with me I feel better. I have always been self sufficient but lately I am not. I fill up my time that way with people. I love it. It makes me happy but the times alone are harder because of it.

The man I spoke about last time, his name is Sorin. He remained calm and steady while I ranted last Saturday. He has tried harder and has been more available ever since. Not proud of how I made that happen. I apologized to his sister, who was rightfully upset we did not make it to dinner when she had put all kinds of effort into preparing a meal for us. I had been looking forward to meeting her family for the first time. She said she won’t do it again and I can not blame her.

Sorin has been trying to find a job and has been actively working on that. He is focused and determined and I am glad he is. He wants to work and earn a living. He wants to provide. All good things. That being said he did apologize and say the appropriate things after Saturday’s events. Not sure if it will continue to be this way but things have been great the last few days. He has shown up when he said and today we went to Copenhagen for the afternoon. It was very nice and cold. Felt colder than in Malmö. Not sure if that is actually true. It has been a while since I have been downtown. What a treat.